Notice to you all

Ladies and gents,

I would like to welcome you to my new blog...well partly my work's but I claim it as my own considering I do all the writing for it!

Click here.

It is my pride and joy and your involvement is always crucial to me. I post regularly so it won't be as sparsely done as this one.

Thank you all,

Hannah x

Lessons of 2012

Last year I learned a phenomenal amount. Not only about me but also, the people I surround myself with. I learned that I shouldn't be so easily lead. I wanted to write a list. A list of things I have learned in life but mainly so, last year.

• If you don't love yourself, no one else will.
• A leopard can't change his spots.
• A liar will always be a liar. No matter how much they say they wouldn't lie to you.
• You don't have to put up with crap from people.
• Your body is a temple.
• Look after yourself first.
• If something doesn't feel right, then it probably isn't.
• You make your own choices. Take other peoples opinions but in the end choose for yourself.
• Never regret. You may be able to have that chance again.
• Love passionately.
• Don't give up on your dreams.
• Take opportunities.
• Be brave.
• Don't dress and act like a slut if you want to be respected.
• Don't ever wish you weren't you.

Now these may all seem fairly obvious but trust me, after being lead astray by listening to liars and fakes, they really aren't all that clear at first. 

I spent last year with the wrong people. Well, some. I lost others who I shouldn't have. I lost me, which I shouldn't have. I lost everything that really mattered to me. Luckily I got some of it back. I made mistakes. Huge ones, last year, but I am not dwelling on them. I've apologised to the right people and I have learned from my mistakes. Now it's time for others to.

I have become calmer. I have quit the substances that once plighted my life. I am healthier, more positive, looking forward. I am spending proper time looking after myself. I am starting to feel like me again. No one can teach you how to do that.

Through my spiritual beliefs I found myself having an almost epiphany. Everything suddenly clicked in my head and I found a peace which I hadn't felt in a long time. Whether religion, spirituality or anything like that is your kind of thing, it doesn't matter; the point is, that when you finally get that realisation, your world can change. I woke up on New Years Day, slightly worse for wear, but amazingly optimistic for the new year ahead.

Times and places have always been significant to me and this new year was no different. If I could have done 2012 over again, I wouldn't. Simply because of everything I have achieved, lost, loved and learned. I don't regret any of it. I gave up a lot last year and I am not giving up again. 

Life is good and I hope yours is too. Lose people who hurt or upset you and embrace the people who make you happy. Do the things you want and just be you.

2013 is your year.
 

Resolute

I decided this year I would bother with resolutions. 2012 was disastrous for me. I lost too much. I gained barely anything. Apart from the will to change. Well that and a ridiculous amount of weight.

My resolutions weren't designed to be something I did or accomplished straight away and in fact I started one of them before new year actually arrived. I quit smoking two weeks ago, today. I had a couple of tokes on NYE but quite honestly, I've done well. I'm proud of myself.

My resolutions have been planned around my last year and what I hated about it mostly.

1) Try and make friends. I am useless at this and too scared to become friendly with people because I am adamant they will hurt me; which, previous experience has taught me, is true. This will not be true of everyone and I need to find the ones who won't hurt me. I want to spend more time with the people I do actually have and I will.
2) Lose weight. This should be fairly simple seeing as I have the perfect diet designed by an amazing person. Plus I know it works as I have done it before.
3)Quit smoking. See previous comment.
4) Blog more. I don't know why really, considering I get to blog as much as I want all day because of my job. It's not the same though, I have the freedom to write what I want but not full freedom. I wanted to write daily, just to express how I feel but writer's block has prevented me the last couple of days, hence why my resolutions are a few days in to the new year.

That is literally it. I have no desire to pressure myself in to too much too soon. 

I need to be happy with everything in small bits. I need to do it in manageable chunks rather than bog myself down with too much at one time. I can do it. I know I can and I am not expecting to do too much straight away.

I don't like the way people criticise people for saying 'new year, new me.' Why is that a bad thing? Okay, maybe not all of them will make a change but at least they have made the effort to initially think of doing something. And that's a start. What have the critics done? Hmmm.

Happy new year people.